Sharon's Fight Against Fibro: Back with it again!

Well, I have been very lax with my blog I must say, almost 2 weeks and I haven't put a word on here! Tut tut! January is a naff month for me, the weather is awful, my joints ache, everything is a real effort, and I really just want to curl up in a ball somewhere and stay there till April! Maybe the little furry animals have it right, they hibernate, what a brilliant idea!!!
I started back at Weight Watchers on 4th January, and today was my second weigh in and I have lost 7lbs, which is great! But, there is always a but, I was the heaviest I had ever been in my life, so losing 7lbs only took me down to what I was 2 years ago when I started the same diet, same time of year, and then I managed to lose almost 3 stones and felt absolutely great! But hey ho, it's off we go again, a jolly old diet, which I must be honest I am quite enjoying because they have changed things and now fruit is free, which I love!!! I eat fruit like most people eat chocolate!!!
Another thing that gets me down in January is the fact that it is my darling wonderful dad's birthday, and if he had still been alive he would have been 92 on the 14th! But, there is that but again, unfortunately he passed away almost 20 years ago, and every day I think of him, I miss him and I just want to put my arms around him and tell him I love him! I never did that enough when he was alive, and now I will never get the chance again! As I sit and type this I am starting to cry because even after all these years I have an ache in my heart and I miss him so much!
But with all the sad and miserable things that January brings, there are some good things too! My darling hubby's birthday being one of them, and that will be on Thursday (20th)! We celebrated early because Aaron was home last weekend, and we went to one of our favourite restauarants, Omars, a lovely curry house in Dunchurch! The four of us had a wonderful meal, great night, and a hangover on Sunday, just how a birthday celebration should be! But for me the best thing was having my wonderful hubby Rich and my two gorgeous sons Aaron and Luke here for the whole weekend!
Since I started the diet, as always seems to happen, I have had a bit more energy during the day, but the evenings have been difficult, probably because I end up doing more so thus end up in pain in the evening! I suppose like most things, as the saying goes, no pain no gain! I get so much more done during the day, although obviously there is still pain, I just think my energy levels go up because I am not eating a load of crap!
The one thing a good diet cannot get rid of is the awful swelling I get in my fingers, and the pain I get when trying to bend them, especially first thing in the morning! One day last week, I think it was Thursday, I actually cried when I tried to bend my fingers, the pain shot right up my arms and across my shoulder blades, not something I had ever had before! So, I took 2 pain killers, did my exercises set by the physio, and then did the relaxation tape I have! By the time I had done all this, the pain had subsided and I felt almsot human - I did say almost!!!!!!
The other thing that I managed to do last week was some more of my Spanish, which pleased me no end! I was also surprised to find that I had remembered most of the words that I had done the previous week, which shows a vast improvement on the Fibrofog, because just a month ago I was having a job remembering names of things and getting very angry and frustrated because I couldn't think of simple everyday words for things!
Tonight I have been out with all the Support Workers and the young members of the Rugby Phoenix Activity Group, which is a youth group we run for youngsters aged 11 to 17, and we have had a lovely meal at the River Avon - and one thing is for sure, it was the quietest I have ever seen all the youngsters!! We went out to celebrate the Group's First Birthday (pictures below), we had our first meeting on 19th January 2010, and through quite a lot of adversity, and interference from agencies who really should have better things to do with their highly paid time, we have made it to a year! In our eyes something worth celebrating!!!
So, this last 2 weeks has been full of ups and down, which really is just a normal way of life for most of us! The only difference is, I also have to deal with pain on a daily basis, which can incapacitate me sometimes for days at a time! Well I have decided that I am no longer going to let it do that to me, I am going to take control, I am going to be in charge and the pain is not!
So, I have finished this blog on a positive note, almost on a high, because I know I am a fighter, I love life, and I want to enjoy every moment of it, I will not merely exist, I will live it to the full!!!