Sunday, 7 August 2011
Mixed Week
I have had a very mixed week this week! Facebook has been both a godsend and a nightmare! My lovely friend Sara Diana Williams has had a bad week with friends and a bad case of bullying on there, which has made me extremely angry! And my other friend, Sue Harry Charlie Partington, finally got her hip replacement done, after 12 weeks of walking around on a broken hip - which according to doctors was not broken that badly!!!! What a joke, if it is broken, she should not have been walking around on it!!! Bless her, she got home yesterday and last night her beloved dog Lucy died! Lucy was her girl, she looked after Sue, kept her feet warm, gave her cuddles when she was down, really was her rock, and I know Sue is devastated at her loss! It made me take stock of how much Jess means to me! I would be heartbroken if anything happened to her, my world would never be the same! She is a joy my lovely black Lab, from when she is picking up the post for me, barking at people who come to the door, or fetching things for me! She is my life saver and sometimes in the morning she is the only reason I haul my pain ridden body out of bed! I wish sometimes that I could make all these bad things go away for my friends, but I know I can't, so I try to send them wise words, words that will help them to feel better and give them my support! The reason why I do all this is because without them, I would not get through the day at times, because when I am moaning on facebook about another pain in another part of my body, they always give me the support I need! This is what we are supposed to do for each other, as human beings, we are supposed to work together, help each other, be a part of the human race! Unfortunately there are those human beings are just nasty, horrible, selfish and arrogant, and care only about themselves! This I feel is what Sara has come up against this week! God bless you Sara Diana, you are the most incredible, selfless, inspiring and kind person I have met in a very long time, and I hope that those who have upset you this week will get back in karma what they have given out! It will be no more than they deserve!
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
Another crazy few weeks!
Well after writing my last blog after a very long break, I have found myself once again in a mad flat spin! I went to Spain for the week with Sheila, had a fabulous time, ate, drank, swam, rested, repeat!!! We met two lovely Irish ladies, Caroline and Elaine, who helped us out with lifts in their lovely car, and showed us around the many nearby local treasures - the post office, tabacconists (although we won't need one we have friends that will!), butchers, a brilliant market and a great tapas bar! They also showed us where the post office was, which until we are given post office boxes will be our only way of collecting our post! Much fun was had by us all, and the weather was outstanding!
Me and Sheila!
At the Indian Restaurant!
Caroline and Elaine!
Sheila and I!
Caroline and Elaine!
The photos of us with the Irish coffees were taken on our balcony on the last night, the ladies came to us and we cooked a joint meal for us all! It was a great way to finish a brilliant holiday!
Since returning on 20th July, I have spent a couple of days in Leeds helping my son Aaron to move house! He is a Maths teacher up there and has moved from a large house he was renting with a friend, into a smaller house! Because his fuel bills keep going up, and with rent and all the other bills he had to pay, he was finding it difficult so decided to downsize!! Between the government cutting his pay, and the bills rising, he is finding it difficult to make ends meet! Contrary to what people think, teachers do not earn £35 grand a year and get 6 months holiday a year, they actually start off on £21 grand and get 3 months holiday a year! Yes it is a lot, but that is not their choice, and to be honest with you, I wouldn't do the job for any amount of money!!
I couldn't do any of the lifting or lugging obviously, but I did help him to pack his clothes, bedding, etc., did his washing and cleaned, and cleaned, and cleaned!!!!!! At least he can come back from his holiday - he is currently in Zante with 4 women - and he will hopefully be settled! As for the holiday - don't ask, I am not sure how he manged to get invited on a girls holiday - and before you think it he is not gay, not that I would find that a problem, but when I told a friend's friend about his holiday she asked me if he was gay!! Not sure what the connection is, but that was what she asked me!!
Aaron and I at Frankie & Benny's in Leeds!
We have also had a celebration in the family, Luke's lovely girlfriend Abby graduated from Cardiff University with a 2.1 Masters degree in Pharmacy. We went out for a lovely meal with her and her family and then Luke went to her Graduation on 22nd July! We are so proud of her, she has been with Luke for 5 years, so she is one of the family, and we have been there with her as she has gone through her 4 years at University!
At our meal to celebrate Abby's graduation!
Luke and Abby at her Graduation Ceremony!
Following on from all these celebrations and outings, we went to Abby's parents house for a wonderful barbecue just this last Saturday. We had a wonderful time, their garden is very tranquil and serene, and the weather was glorious! We have had some wonderful weather these last few weeks, not sure how long it will last but it has helped me enormously with my aches and pains! I still have pain, but it is more of a dull ache! I am having real problems with my right knee, but I am terrified of going to the doctors, because it has gone exactly the same way as my left knee did and I had to have a replacement in that one - and that is something I really do not want to repeat! It was the most painful experience and I am still, after nearly five years, unable to bend it properly and it gives me a lot of discomfort! I also have the added problem that when I fly anywhere I ALWAYS set off the alarms when I go through security - oh joy! I now automatically go through and raise my arms ready to be frisked!! I now know what the bionic woman felt like!!!! Still, could be worse, could be a metal plate in my head!! Anyway I am finishing off now by saying that our plans are well underway for our trip to Spain in late September, we are going and taking my lovely Jess with us! I am really looking forward to going back to our lovely apartment!!
Myself and Les, Abby's mum in their lovely garden!
Steve and Les, Abby's parents!
Richard!
Abby and Luke!
Abby with Jess!
Luke, and you can see the beautiful garden in the background!
Sunday, 10 July 2011
I hang my head in shame!!
Lounge!
Our bedroom!
Dining Area!
Guest Bedroom!
Kitchen!
Balcony!I have also had quite a bit going on at home, the decorator has been busy, and we have had the study and kitchen decorated, and the lounge is being done soon!
We have also had a holiday in Orlando, Florida, visiting all the parks, including Universal and Harry Potter World - I was so excited about that!!!!! That unfortunately left me exhausted, but I had a wonderful time there and would not have missed if for the world! As you can see from the pics below, it was so realistic!
Hagrids house!
Shop in Harry Poter world!
Hogwarts Express!After returning from Florida, we only had about 6 weeks and then we were off to Spain to set up our apartment! During that six weeks Richard and Luke moved the business from home to an industrial unit in Daventry, which is about 20 minutes away. That was quite an event, because it was testament to the hard work they had both put in expanding the business, making it essential for them to get a bigger place. During this six weeks I also had several visits to the doctors, to sort out my pain and also my blood pressure. The visit to Spain though busy was a bit more restful holiday than Florida! After the first week, when we had to thoroughly clean the apartment and set up all the furniture, etc.,we got to spend time finding shops and supermarkets, and buying the rest of the electrical equipment/furniture we needed!
I have been back in the UK for about 5 weeks, and I am once again off to Spain. This time I am taking my lovely friend Sheila there for a weeks holiday! I am really looking forward to a nice girly week with her, with lots of rest and relaxation!! During the 5 weeks I have been home, I have been busy with the house, as the decorator has been in, but we are now having a break from that and he will be back in August to do the lounge!
So that has been my time since I last came on here, very busy, but there have also been developments with my arthritis and Fibromyalgia! I have been given exercises to do every day, which I do try to keep up with, but there have been times when I have just not been well enough to do them! I have also been told to try walking every day, and although I take the dog out, I do not go far because of my fear that my knee will give way and I will get stuck! So I now have the running machine in the study and I go on that every day, but only at a walking pace, to try and build up the legs and hips, which are really painful now! So life is quite busy, it is good and I am winning the fight! I am 54 this September, and my doctor told me when I was about 40 that I would be in a wheelchair by the time I was 50 if I didn't have an operation on my back, well I have beaten those odds and I intend to keep on doing that, beating the odds that is, because I will not let my condition rule my life!!!!
When I wake in the morning and every movement sends searing pain through my body, I just think of all those people who can't move, of those people who have lost their lives to diseases like cancer, and I count my blessings! Yes I am in pain every day, that pain moves from one part of my body to another, but I am alive, and I intend to live my life to the full, because there are those that never had that opportunity, so I am one of the lucky ones!!!!!
Monday, 24 January 2011
What a week!
Well, that was a mad week! Hubby's birthday Thursday (20th), so we had a nice lunch out at the Golden Lion, then went and did a bit of shopping, Elaine and Vic popped round in the evening for a drink, so he had a nice day! Friday I felt really ill, I had the worst stomach ache ever, felt really yuck, but couldn't really tell you what was wrong with me! Very weird!
The whole weekend was the same, I spent Saturday in my PJ's, and I sat and did something I have been wanting to do for ages - sorted out our DVD collection, put them on a list, and put them in Alphabetical order! Sounds boring, but I felt a real sense of achievement that I finally got it done! Rich spent the day sorting out the office, so I thought it might as well be done the same day! Office looks better, much more room, and Rich and Luke will not be colliding into each other every time they move!
Sunday was a really bad day, pains in my head, felt giddy every time I stood up, so I had a shower and washed my hair (which completely exhausted me!!) then put on clean PJ's and climbed back into bed! Stayed there all day, which is not like me at all! Really fed up with this now, the tiredness, the pain, the different bits of me that don't work properly, where has my fighting spirit gone?
It is Monday at 12.13 p.m. as I am typing this, I am still in bed and feeling very irritable, I have so much to do and no energy to do it! I have a busy week ahead of me, so I do not have time for this! I am going to get up in a minute, chuck on some old clothes and get some jobs done, they will probably take me forever, but I am going to do it! So wish me luck, think I will need it, and I will be back on here later today to let you know how it all went!!!
The whole weekend was the same, I spent Saturday in my PJ's, and I sat and did something I have been wanting to do for ages - sorted out our DVD collection, put them on a list, and put them in Alphabetical order! Sounds boring, but I felt a real sense of achievement that I finally got it done! Rich spent the day sorting out the office, so I thought it might as well be done the same day! Office looks better, much more room, and Rich and Luke will not be colliding into each other every time they move!
Sunday was a really bad day, pains in my head, felt giddy every time I stood up, so I had a shower and washed my hair (which completely exhausted me!!) then put on clean PJ's and climbed back into bed! Stayed there all day, which is not like me at all! Really fed up with this now, the tiredness, the pain, the different bits of me that don't work properly, where has my fighting spirit gone?
It is Monday at 12.13 p.m. as I am typing this, I am still in bed and feeling very irritable, I have so much to do and no energy to do it! I have a busy week ahead of me, so I do not have time for this! I am going to get up in a minute, chuck on some old clothes and get some jobs done, they will probably take me forever, but I am going to do it! So wish me luck, think I will need it, and I will be back on here later today to let you know how it all went!!!
Tuesday, 18 January 2011
Back with it again!
Well, I have been very lax with my blog I must say, almost 2 weeks and I haven't put a word on here! Tut tut! January is a naff month for me, the weather is awful, my joints ache, everything is a real effort, and I really just want to curl up in a ball somewhere and stay there till April! Maybe the little furry animals have it right, they hibernate, what a brilliant idea!!!
I started back at Weight Watchers on 4th January, and today was my second weigh in and I have lost 7lbs, which is great! But, there is always a but, I was the heaviest I had ever been in my life, so losing 7lbs only took me down to what I was 2 years ago when I started the same diet, same time of year, and then I managed to lose almost 3 stones and felt absolutely great! But hey ho, it's off we go again, a jolly old diet, which I must be honest I am quite enjoying because they have changed things and now fruit is free, which I love!!! I eat fruit like most people eat chocolate!!!
Another thing that gets me down in January is the fact that it is my darling wonderful dad's birthday, and if he had still been alive he would have been 92 on the 14th! But, there is that but again, unfortunately he passed away almost 20 years ago, and every day I think of him, I miss him and I just want to put my arms around him and tell him I love him! I never did that enough when he was alive, and now I will never get the chance again! As I sit and type this I am starting to cry because even after all these years I have an ache in my heart and I miss him so much!
But with all the sad and miserable things that January brings, there are some good things too! My darling hubby's birthday being one of them, and that will be on Thursday (20th)! We celebrated early because Aaron was home last weekend, and we went to one of our favourite restauarants, Omars, a lovely curry house in Dunchurch! The four of us had a wonderful meal, great night, and a hangover on Sunday, just how a birthday celebration should be! But for me the best thing was having my wonderful hubby Rich and my two gorgeous sons Aaron and Luke here for the whole weekend!
Since I started the diet, as always seems to happen, I have had a bit more energy during the day, but the evenings have been difficult, probably because I end up doing more so thus end up in pain in the evening! I suppose like most things, as the saying goes, no pain no gain! I get so much more done during the day, although obviously there is still pain, I just think my energy levels go up because I am not eating a load of crap!
The one thing a good diet cannot get rid of is the awful swelling I get in my fingers, and the pain I get when trying to bend them, especially first thing in the morning! One day last week, I think it was Thursday, I actually cried when I tried to bend my fingers, the pain shot right up my arms and across my shoulder blades, not something I had ever had before! So, I took 2 pain killers, did my exercises set by the physio, and then did the relaxation tape I have! By the time I had done all this, the pain had subsided and I felt almsot human - I did say almost!!!!!!
The other thing that I managed to do last week was some more of my Spanish, which pleased me no end! I was also surprised to find that I had remembered most of the words that I had done the previous week, which shows a vast improvement on the Fibrofog, because just a month ago I was having a job remembering names of things and getting very angry and frustrated because I couldn't think of simple everyday words for things!
Tonight I have been out with all the Support Workers and the young members of the Rugby Phoenix Activity Group, which is a youth group we run for youngsters aged 11 to 17, and we have had a lovely meal at the River Avon - and one thing is for sure, it was the quietest I have ever seen all the youngsters!! We went out to celebrate the Group's First Birthday (pictures below), we had our first meeting on 19th January 2010, and through quite a lot of adversity, and interference from agencies who really should have better things to do with their highly paid time, we have made it to a year! In our eyes something worth celebrating!!!
So, this last 2 weeks has been full of ups and down, which really is just a normal way of life for most of us! The only difference is, I also have to deal with pain on a daily basis, which can incapacitate me sometimes for days at a time! Well I have decided that I am no longer going to let it do that to me, I am going to take control, I am going to be in charge and the pain is not!
So, I have finished this blog on a positive note, almost on a high, because I know I am a fighter, I love life, and I want to enjoy every moment of it, I will not merely exist, I will live it to the full!!!
I started back at Weight Watchers on 4th January, and today was my second weigh in and I have lost 7lbs, which is great! But, there is always a but, I was the heaviest I had ever been in my life, so losing 7lbs only took me down to what I was 2 years ago when I started the same diet, same time of year, and then I managed to lose almost 3 stones and felt absolutely great! But hey ho, it's off we go again, a jolly old diet, which I must be honest I am quite enjoying because they have changed things and now fruit is free, which I love!!! I eat fruit like most people eat chocolate!!!
Another thing that gets me down in January is the fact that it is my darling wonderful dad's birthday, and if he had still been alive he would have been 92 on the 14th! But, there is that but again, unfortunately he passed away almost 20 years ago, and every day I think of him, I miss him and I just want to put my arms around him and tell him I love him! I never did that enough when he was alive, and now I will never get the chance again! As I sit and type this I am starting to cry because even after all these years I have an ache in my heart and I miss him so much!
But with all the sad and miserable things that January brings, there are some good things too! My darling hubby's birthday being one of them, and that will be on Thursday (20th)! We celebrated early because Aaron was home last weekend, and we went to one of our favourite restauarants, Omars, a lovely curry house in Dunchurch! The four of us had a wonderful meal, great night, and a hangover on Sunday, just how a birthday celebration should be! But for me the best thing was having my wonderful hubby Rich and my two gorgeous sons Aaron and Luke here for the whole weekend!
Since I started the diet, as always seems to happen, I have had a bit more energy during the day, but the evenings have been difficult, probably because I end up doing more so thus end up in pain in the evening! I suppose like most things, as the saying goes, no pain no gain! I get so much more done during the day, although obviously there is still pain, I just think my energy levels go up because I am not eating a load of crap!
The one thing a good diet cannot get rid of is the awful swelling I get in my fingers, and the pain I get when trying to bend them, especially first thing in the morning! One day last week, I think it was Thursday, I actually cried when I tried to bend my fingers, the pain shot right up my arms and across my shoulder blades, not something I had ever had before! So, I took 2 pain killers, did my exercises set by the physio, and then did the relaxation tape I have! By the time I had done all this, the pain had subsided and I felt almsot human - I did say almost!!!!!!
The other thing that I managed to do last week was some more of my Spanish, which pleased me no end! I was also surprised to find that I had remembered most of the words that I had done the previous week, which shows a vast improvement on the Fibrofog, because just a month ago I was having a job remembering names of things and getting very angry and frustrated because I couldn't think of simple everyday words for things!
Tonight I have been out with all the Support Workers and the young members of the Rugby Phoenix Activity Group, which is a youth group we run for youngsters aged 11 to 17, and we have had a lovely meal at the River Avon - and one thing is for sure, it was the quietest I have ever seen all the youngsters!! We went out to celebrate the Group's First Birthday (pictures below), we had our first meeting on 19th January 2010, and through quite a lot of adversity, and interference from agencies who really should have better things to do with their highly paid time, we have made it to a year! In our eyes something worth celebrating!!!
So, this last 2 weeks has been full of ups and down, which really is just a normal way of life for most of us! The only difference is, I also have to deal with pain on a daily basis, which can incapacitate me sometimes for days at a time! Well I have decided that I am no longer going to let it do that to me, I am going to take control, I am going to be in charge and the pain is not!
So, I have finished this blog on a positive note, almost on a high, because I know I am a fighter, I love life, and I want to enjoy every moment of it, I will not merely exist, I will live it to the full!!!
Luke (left) and Dave with some of the youngsters!
Luke getting stuck into the grub - they all packed away plenty!
The end of the meal - it wasn't the half time oranges!
Denise - looking very serious!
Debs and Andy - not sure what Debs is doing!!!
Just chilling and chatting!
A few of the younger ones!
Thursday, 6 January 2011
A Funny Old Day!
Well, it has been a funny old day today! The decorations came down today, it took us all day, me, Rich and Luke, and then the tidy up began!!! Thankfully we work well as a team, and it all got done in the end, dusting, hoovering and mopping floors! I love my wooden flooring in the summer, but in the winter it is a nightmare! But never mind, it does look good! Everywhere looks so dull and dark now though, I love having all the lights on, the twinkling ones especially!
Because I had a lot to do today, I played my relaxation CD when I stopped for lunch, so it would keep me going and make me feel ready to do more! I have now got to the stage where I do pace myself, little breaks at frequent intervals, which irritates me at times, but today I knew I would have to do it that way or not cope!!
I also managed to prepare the tea, it took me ages to cut up the meat, thank goodness for Luke's very sharp chef knife, and the vegetables, but it got done eventually! Unfortunately I cannot lift the casserole in and out of the oven, so that has to be done by the men, but it was Weight Watchers Beef and Guinness Casserole, and it was yummy! Which takes me on to the diet, it is going well so far, this is the third day and to be honest I am having a job using up all my Pro Points! I think it is because the fruit is now free, because I eat a lot of fruit, and that used to have to be counted in the points! It is very different, but I am finding it much better than the old one, but the proof will be in the sugar free pudding when I weigh in next Tuesday!!! Just hope I have lost a bit!
I have been getting pain in the soles of my feet, particularly in my heels, which is weird, it makes you feel like you are walking on hot coals, very uncomfortable! Thus I decided this afternoon after all the jobs were done to get out my foot bath, fill it with warm water and peppermint crystals, and dip my feet! I also put the massager on and this did seem to help me quite a bit. My thumbs have also been giving me more pain, which is awful because if your thumbs don't work, you can do very little!
One of my new year challenges, apart from starting this blog, was to get back into my Spanish, ready for when we spend more time out there, and yesterday I got back onto doing my Rosetta Stone, and I managed to do lessons 1 and 2, and I learned a lot! The only problem is, with the fibrofog I constantly have, it is whether I will remember it! But that is the one good thing about the Rosetta Stone, I can just keep going over and over it if needs be!!!
Of all the things that today has brought, the start to the day was not good! When I went onto my Facebook account to check my messages, I read of my friend Sara's terrible news - Sara is the most wonderful, kind hearted, thoughtful person you could wish to meet, and she has an affinity with animals! She has a horse (Cola boy), 2 dogs (Wilbur and Pickles) and a whole host of Rabbits, Guinea Pigs, and goodness knows what else in her garden! She also has her own dog grooming business, which unfortunately she has not been able to run of late because she has been fighting Breast Cancer! She has been looking after her friend's dog for some years now while her friend is at work, and yesterday while Joe, her eldest son, was out walking Poppy, she slipped her lead and chased after a tractor, which ended with her being hit by the tractor and dying! Sara was devastated, as was Joe. The sadness came across in her status' throughout today, and my heart went out to her! This was not the start to the New Year she wanted! It is not what anybody wanted! But the problem was, Poppy and Sara's 2 dogs were, in Sara's words, ASBO dogs, and when they were out together were hard work, so they could not be walked all at once, and Poppy in particular was well known for chasing anything - cars, horses, kids on bikes, and unfortunately the tractor! My heart goes out to all the family, including Poppy's owner Jan and her daughter Chloe, who I have no doubt are devastated!
So once again, I finish my blog by saying, NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU THINK THINGS ARE, THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WORSE OFF THAN YOU! R.I.P Poppy, who will no doubt be up there now, chasing the Angels and giving them a tough time!!!!
Because I had a lot to do today, I played my relaxation CD when I stopped for lunch, so it would keep me going and make me feel ready to do more! I have now got to the stage where I do pace myself, little breaks at frequent intervals, which irritates me at times, but today I knew I would have to do it that way or not cope!!
I also managed to prepare the tea, it took me ages to cut up the meat, thank goodness for Luke's very sharp chef knife, and the vegetables, but it got done eventually! Unfortunately I cannot lift the casserole in and out of the oven, so that has to be done by the men, but it was Weight Watchers Beef and Guinness Casserole, and it was yummy! Which takes me on to the diet, it is going well so far, this is the third day and to be honest I am having a job using up all my Pro Points! I think it is because the fruit is now free, because I eat a lot of fruit, and that used to have to be counted in the points! It is very different, but I am finding it much better than the old one, but the proof will be in the sugar free pudding when I weigh in next Tuesday!!! Just hope I have lost a bit!
I have been getting pain in the soles of my feet, particularly in my heels, which is weird, it makes you feel like you are walking on hot coals, very uncomfortable! Thus I decided this afternoon after all the jobs were done to get out my foot bath, fill it with warm water and peppermint crystals, and dip my feet! I also put the massager on and this did seem to help me quite a bit. My thumbs have also been giving me more pain, which is awful because if your thumbs don't work, you can do very little!
One of my new year challenges, apart from starting this blog, was to get back into my Spanish, ready for when we spend more time out there, and yesterday I got back onto doing my Rosetta Stone, and I managed to do lessons 1 and 2, and I learned a lot! The only problem is, with the fibrofog I constantly have, it is whether I will remember it! But that is the one good thing about the Rosetta Stone, I can just keep going over and over it if needs be!!!
Of all the things that today has brought, the start to the day was not good! When I went onto my Facebook account to check my messages, I read of my friend Sara's terrible news - Sara is the most wonderful, kind hearted, thoughtful person you could wish to meet, and she has an affinity with animals! She has a horse (Cola boy), 2 dogs (Wilbur and Pickles) and a whole host of Rabbits, Guinea Pigs, and goodness knows what else in her garden! She also has her own dog grooming business, which unfortunately she has not been able to run of late because she has been fighting Breast Cancer! She has been looking after her friend's dog for some years now while her friend is at work, and yesterday while Joe, her eldest son, was out walking Poppy, she slipped her lead and chased after a tractor, which ended with her being hit by the tractor and dying! Sara was devastated, as was Joe. The sadness came across in her status' throughout today, and my heart went out to her! This was not the start to the New Year she wanted! It is not what anybody wanted! But the problem was, Poppy and Sara's 2 dogs were, in Sara's words, ASBO dogs, and when they were out together were hard work, so they could not be walked all at once, and Poppy in particular was well known for chasing anything - cars, horses, kids on bikes, and unfortunately the tractor! My heart goes out to all the family, including Poppy's owner Jan and her daughter Chloe, who I have no doubt are devastated!
So once again, I finish my blog by saying, NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU THINK THINGS ARE, THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WORSE OFF THAN YOU! R.I.P Poppy, who will no doubt be up there now, chasing the Angels and giving them a tough time!!!!
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
The Diet Begins!
I woke up this morning feeling very tired, thanks to the neighbours (who returned yesterday from a two week holiday) and their bloody barking dogs, I was woken at 7 ish, and the dogs continued to bark outside until 10 ish, when I am assuming the dogs were taken in because they were going out! It has been lovely over the last 2 weeks to be able to sleep in till 11 or even as late as 12, without being disturbed, but alas that is no more! Still, I stayed in bed till 11 and watched TV then had a shower, so I still got a lie in!
Once downstairs and after weighing myself (and finding that I had gone up to 16st 7lbs!!!!!!!!!!! - the heaviest I have ever been in my life!) I decided to rejoin Weight Watchers on line! I can't go to the classes, because as most people who suffer with Fibro know, you cannot guarantee how you will be from one day to the next, and actually getting up, showered, dressed and driving yourself somewhere might not be possible!!! Quite frequently by the time I have showered and dressed I am exhausted! And so that I can cope with not being able to get to a weigh in, it is easier to do WW on line! But you do have to be disciplined and honest about your weigh in, or there is no point in paying out the money! It is, of course, also a bit cheaper, not that that would stop me going to a class, but I also have the philosophy that I don't need a 'teacher' to tell me I am fat, I already know that, hence joining WW!!!!
I got started on the diet, by doing myself a lovely salmon and cucumber sandwich at lunchtime (yes I did nice little quarters, but I did leave the crusts on!!) followed by a bowl of grapes and a nice cup of coffee! Then I set about the task of writing a shopping list, and planning the meals for the week! That in itself was a task and a half, what with the fibrofog, and the fact that my thumbs were killing me today, which made writing very difficult! I eventually got it done, and was so chuffed with myself, as I had worked out a menu for the week, 3 meals a day plus snacks, so off Rich and I went to Tescos! We did the shopping, and when we left Tescos we popped to Currys to look for a new dishwasher, twice today I had dropped items and one had broken, so we thought it might be wise to get a new one!!! I felt quite pleased with myself that I had done so much, but unfortunately it took it's toll on me when we got home!! I was in so much pain, and when I tried to dry the dishes I had left to drain, I had searing pain in my thumbs up my arms and across my shoulders! It brought me to tears, which doesn't happen often, but it was, putting it bluntly, bloody excruciating! So much so that it took my breath away and left me holding on to the sink for all I was worth!!
At this point I decided to sit and take a break, and put on my relaxation CD, which helps me to calm down, chill out and relax my body, which usually helps to alleviate the pain! It doesn't always work, depends how stressed I am, but on this occasion it did! After a bit of a rest I started to do the tea, some of the things I didn't attempt, thankfully Rich was working from home today so he did them, for example grating a carrot, a definite no when your thumbs won't work properly!!
This evening I have spent some time writing a journal, to keep a track of my diet and how I am feeling with it! I am hoping that not carrying so much weight around will help my illness, but we will see! Now that I look back on the day, I am amazed at how much I have achieved, and am pleased that I sat and wrote my journal because that was something that the consultant told me would help my wrists and hands, to keep them moving doing normal everyday things! Let's hope he was right! I also took a photo of me in all my 16st 7lbs glory, and it was awful, I am just so fat!!! But, on the other hand I can look forward now to taking another one when I have got to my goal of 12st, I know this may still seem heavy, but if I can get to 12st I will be happy, and a lot healthier, AND MY JOINTS WILL HAVE LESS STRAIN ON THEM!
I was also talking on Facebook today to a friend who has had a terrible year, lost her job, her marriage has broken down, one of her children has been in trouble with the police, and she is struggling to cope with finances and may lose her house, and that makes me count my blessings! I may be in constant pain - but it is not life threatening, it is a chronic illness; I may be overweight - but I have a husband who loves me dearly; I may worry about the future and what it brings me - but I know I have my lovely husband and two very caring sons who will be there for me! For all of these things I am eternally grateful, and each time I feel this awful Fibro taking over my life I try to put into my mind the saying my mum always used - THERE IS SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD WORSE OFF THAN ME, SO JUST PICK YOURSELF UP, DUST YOURSELF DOWN AND START ALL OVER AGAIN!!
Once downstairs and after weighing myself (and finding that I had gone up to 16st 7lbs!!!!!!!!!!! - the heaviest I have ever been in my life!) I decided to rejoin Weight Watchers on line! I can't go to the classes, because as most people who suffer with Fibro know, you cannot guarantee how you will be from one day to the next, and actually getting up, showered, dressed and driving yourself somewhere might not be possible!!! Quite frequently by the time I have showered and dressed I am exhausted! And so that I can cope with not being able to get to a weigh in, it is easier to do WW on line! But you do have to be disciplined and honest about your weigh in, or there is no point in paying out the money! It is, of course, also a bit cheaper, not that that would stop me going to a class, but I also have the philosophy that I don't need a 'teacher' to tell me I am fat, I already know that, hence joining WW!!!!
I got started on the diet, by doing myself a lovely salmon and cucumber sandwich at lunchtime (yes I did nice little quarters, but I did leave the crusts on!!) followed by a bowl of grapes and a nice cup of coffee! Then I set about the task of writing a shopping list, and planning the meals for the week! That in itself was a task and a half, what with the fibrofog, and the fact that my thumbs were killing me today, which made writing very difficult! I eventually got it done, and was so chuffed with myself, as I had worked out a menu for the week, 3 meals a day plus snacks, so off Rich and I went to Tescos! We did the shopping, and when we left Tescos we popped to Currys to look for a new dishwasher, twice today I had dropped items and one had broken, so we thought it might be wise to get a new one!!! I felt quite pleased with myself that I had done so much, but unfortunately it took it's toll on me when we got home!! I was in so much pain, and when I tried to dry the dishes I had left to drain, I had searing pain in my thumbs up my arms and across my shoulders! It brought me to tears, which doesn't happen often, but it was, putting it bluntly, bloody excruciating! So much so that it took my breath away and left me holding on to the sink for all I was worth!!
At this point I decided to sit and take a break, and put on my relaxation CD, which helps me to calm down, chill out and relax my body, which usually helps to alleviate the pain! It doesn't always work, depends how stressed I am, but on this occasion it did! After a bit of a rest I started to do the tea, some of the things I didn't attempt, thankfully Rich was working from home today so he did them, for example grating a carrot, a definite no when your thumbs won't work properly!!
ME - ALL 16ST 7LBS!!!
I was also talking on Facebook today to a friend who has had a terrible year, lost her job, her marriage has broken down, one of her children has been in trouble with the police, and she is struggling to cope with finances and may lose her house, and that makes me count my blessings! I may be in constant pain - but it is not life threatening, it is a chronic illness; I may be overweight - but I have a husband who loves me dearly; I may worry about the future and what it brings me - but I know I have my lovely husband and two very caring sons who will be there for me! For all of these things I am eternally grateful, and each time I feel this awful Fibro taking over my life I try to put into my mind the saying my mum always used - THERE IS SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD WORSE OFF THAN ME, SO JUST PICK YOURSELF UP, DUST YOURSELF DOWN AND START ALL OVER AGAIN!!
Monday, 3 January 2011
A Bad Day!
Today has been a bad day! The pain in my hands has been intense, and my thumbs felt like they were on fire! I have done very little in the house, which means I will have more to do tomorrow! But maybe tomorrow will be a better day, and that won't be a problem! And on top of that the dishwasher has given up the ghost!! Now that really is a bad thing, because washing up when you keep dropping things is no fun - wet crockery and crappy hands = lots of breakages!!
But having said that, I did go shopping to Fosse Park, and I managed to get Richard his Birthday presents! To me that felt like a major achievement! I did have to take my walking stick, but holding on to that was hard work too! Such a pain in the proverbial!!! But, I did get a lot of things sorted, and I bought some lovely new nail varnishes in the sale at Boots, as well as a cura heat for my hands! They only had one left or I would have been tempted to buy 2, one for each hand! The right hand was the worst, which is a nightmare as that is my writing hand, so everytime I used my card and had to tap in the pin, it hurt, and when I shopped at M & S and had to sign for my purchases on my store card, holding the pen was difficult as my thumb wasn't working properly!!! Such a nightmare! You also feel like a bit of an idiot when you are having to place your pen in a certain way to be able to write!!! Derrrr!!!
Anyway, back to the nail varnishes - I bought 4 Ted Baker varnishes in a lovely box, and they were reduced to half price, £6 instead of £12!! And one of them is bright red - this might seem a bit boring to some of you reading this, but to me it is so exciting, because last year I stopped biting my nails! I had bitten my nails all my life (I grew them when I got married and again when I was expecting my eldest son but other than that I bit them very badly!!) and for the last 6 months I have treated myself to a monthly manicure, and Lorraine, the lady who does them, says I am her star pupil as I look after my nails very well!! The funny thing is, it was my son nagging at me, and the fact that when I was out shopping one day and I saw the disgusted look from a lady sales assistant when she saw my very badly bitten nails, that made me stop!!! So thanks to both my son Luke and that lady in the shop!
Back to my aches and pains, today has been a crap day, there is no other way to describe it, right from my shower this morning, I have had a lot of pain, trying to wash my feet was impossible because I couldn't bend to do them, I tried to put on a ring again today (as yesterday) and today none of them would fit! My hands were so swollen that even my gloves felt tight when I went out shopping! But I will not be beaten, I am going to keep positive, and I have decided that from tomorrow I am going to do three things:
1. Set myself a task each day to complete, so that I can have a sense of achievement!
2. Get back to Weight Watchers and lose this extra weight, because my joints are stressed enough without the strain of the blubber I am carrying!!
3. I am going to start back at the beginning of my Rosetta Stone Spanish lessons, so that when we go out to Spain for the month in October i will be more fluent!!!
These are things that are achieveable for me, which I personally feel is the key to helping my self esteem, setting myself ridiculously difficult targets will not help me!! Oh and the other good thing about today - I managed to get some more things for our apartment in Spain! We bought a 2 bedroomed apartment in Murcia last year, and we will be going out there later this year to set it up for the summer, so that friends and family can hire it, and I am gradually buying all the things we need and we have gone with a black and white theme, with a bit of red thrown in!!! I am really enjoying doing this as it is a brand new apartment and everything in it will be the same - so exciting!!!!
Well, I am going to retire now, it is 12.24 on Tuesday morning, and the holidays are now well and truly over and the country is back to work fully today (including my husband and son!), so now is my time to start the year as I mean to carry on, positively!!!!
But having said that, I did go shopping to Fosse Park, and I managed to get Richard his Birthday presents! To me that felt like a major achievement! I did have to take my walking stick, but holding on to that was hard work too! Such a pain in the proverbial!!! But, I did get a lot of things sorted, and I bought some lovely new nail varnishes in the sale at Boots, as well as a cura heat for my hands! They only had one left or I would have been tempted to buy 2, one for each hand! The right hand was the worst, which is a nightmare as that is my writing hand, so everytime I used my card and had to tap in the pin, it hurt, and when I shopped at M & S and had to sign for my purchases on my store card, holding the pen was difficult as my thumb wasn't working properly!!! Such a nightmare! You also feel like a bit of an idiot when you are having to place your pen in a certain way to be able to write!!! Derrrr!!!
Anyway, back to the nail varnishes - I bought 4 Ted Baker varnishes in a lovely box, and they were reduced to half price, £6 instead of £12!! And one of them is bright red - this might seem a bit boring to some of you reading this, but to me it is so exciting, because last year I stopped biting my nails! I had bitten my nails all my life (I grew them when I got married and again when I was expecting my eldest son but other than that I bit them very badly!!) and for the last 6 months I have treated myself to a monthly manicure, and Lorraine, the lady who does them, says I am her star pupil as I look after my nails very well!! The funny thing is, it was my son nagging at me, and the fact that when I was out shopping one day and I saw the disgusted look from a lady sales assistant when she saw my very badly bitten nails, that made me stop!!! So thanks to both my son Luke and that lady in the shop!
Back to my aches and pains, today has been a crap day, there is no other way to describe it, right from my shower this morning, I have had a lot of pain, trying to wash my feet was impossible because I couldn't bend to do them, I tried to put on a ring again today (as yesterday) and today none of them would fit! My hands were so swollen that even my gloves felt tight when I went out shopping! But I will not be beaten, I am going to keep positive, and I have decided that from tomorrow I am going to do three things:
1. Set myself a task each day to complete, so that I can have a sense of achievement!
2. Get back to Weight Watchers and lose this extra weight, because my joints are stressed enough without the strain of the blubber I am carrying!!
3. I am going to start back at the beginning of my Rosetta Stone Spanish lessons, so that when we go out to Spain for the month in October i will be more fluent!!!
These are things that are achieveable for me, which I personally feel is the key to helping my self esteem, setting myself ridiculously difficult targets will not help me!! Oh and the other good thing about today - I managed to get some more things for our apartment in Spain! We bought a 2 bedroomed apartment in Murcia last year, and we will be going out there later this year to set it up for the summer, so that friends and family can hire it, and I am gradually buying all the things we need and we have gone with a black and white theme, with a bit of red thrown in!!! I am really enjoying doing this as it is a brand new apartment and everything in it will be the same - so exciting!!!!
Well, I am going to retire now, it is 12.24 on Tuesday morning, and the holidays are now well and truly over and the country is back to work fully today (including my husband and son!), so now is my time to start the year as I mean to carry on, positively!!!!
Sunday, 2 January 2011
The Brick Wall!!
Well, I am truly gobsmacked, for the first time in months I have slept in!! I didn't surface till 1p.m.!! Can't believe that I managed to sleep for so long! Yesterday I think was the 'Brick Wall' syndrome, the one where you know you are so exhausted you cannot do anything but sleep! So off to bed I went about midnight (ish) and took an Amitriptyline, and I slept really well! Feel so much better for it today, although my hands are extremely painful, and I have put cream on them and massaged them this afternoon to get them moving! My back is also painful, but that is probably from lying in bed so long! Have just spoken to my eldest son Aaron on Facebook, and he is still full of cold! He is back to work (school) on Tuesday and I just hope he will be better, because there are concerns that when the youngsters all return to school the flu virus will spread even more! I just hope he will be ok!
Well I am going to get off here for now, will probably be back later, as I have to do some tidying up today! Didn't do a thing yesterday, so must do it today!! While I have this kind of energy, I have to make the most of it!!! Every day is different and tomorrow might not be as good!!!
Well, it is now 1.30 a.m. Monday 3rd January and I have had a really good day! We decided to go out and eat last night, tried the Harvester but they had run out of more food than they had left so moved on to Frankie and Bennys. Had a nice meal and then came home about 9.30! Watched the Expendables again.
Since then have caught up with a few things on Sky +, in particular the Diversity show which was brilliant!
The only downside of today has been the pain in my hands, they have hurt so much I couldn't even pick up my glass of wine - now that really is worrying!!!!! But on a more serious note, my fingers were so swollen that the dress ring I always wear (bought for me by my wonderful, fabulous, gorgeous mum) did not fit me, which always is the sign to me that things are bad! I had a few tears when I couldn't get it past my knuckle, because when I go out I always like to wear something my mum bought for me, because then she is always with me! She passed away in February 2008, very suddenly, from pneumonia! Although she was nearly 82, she was a very healthy lady, until she got what we thought was just a cold!! Sadly it was more than that, and there are so many 'what ifs' about her death that I have to put them out of my mind, otherwise I would never live with her death, and that is something I have struggled with since then! I looked after her for 17 years, since my dad passed, and although we had our ups and downs, she was my rock, and I miss her dearly!
Anyway, she is here with me always, and I am very like her, so she lives in on in many ways!!!!
Well, I am going to go now and take myself off to bed, hope I can sleep well again tonight, last day off for the chaps tomorrow, back to the grind for them on Tuesday, and time for us to start taking down the decorations, takes us about 3 days, we have so many!!! But I love them being up, just seems to make everything much more cheerful!!! Will put some pictures of our decs on here for you to see, then you will understand why it takes so long!!! But that will be another time, as now I am ready for sleep! Take care all, think that brick wall is about to hit again!!!!
Well I am going to get off here for now, will probably be back later, as I have to do some tidying up today! Didn't do a thing yesterday, so must do it today!! While I have this kind of energy, I have to make the most of it!!! Every day is different and tomorrow might not be as good!!!
Well, it is now 1.30 a.m. Monday 3rd January and I have had a really good day! We decided to go out and eat last night, tried the Harvester but they had run out of more food than they had left so moved on to Frankie and Bennys. Had a nice meal and then came home about 9.30! Watched the Expendables again.
Since then have caught up with a few things on Sky +, in particular the Diversity show which was brilliant!
The only downside of today has been the pain in my hands, they have hurt so much I couldn't even pick up my glass of wine - now that really is worrying!!!!! But on a more serious note, my fingers were so swollen that the dress ring I always wear (bought for me by my wonderful, fabulous, gorgeous mum) did not fit me, which always is the sign to me that things are bad! I had a few tears when I couldn't get it past my knuckle, because when I go out I always like to wear something my mum bought for me, because then she is always with me! She passed away in February 2008, very suddenly, from pneumonia! Although she was nearly 82, she was a very healthy lady, until she got what we thought was just a cold!! Sadly it was more than that, and there are so many 'what ifs' about her death that I have to put them out of my mind, otherwise I would never live with her death, and that is something I have struggled with since then! I looked after her for 17 years, since my dad passed, and although we had our ups and downs, she was my rock, and I miss her dearly!
Anyway, she is here with me always, and I am very like her, so she lives in on in many ways!!!!
Well, I am going to go now and take myself off to bed, hope I can sleep well again tonight, last day off for the chaps tomorrow, back to the grind for them on Tuesday, and time for us to start taking down the decorations, takes us about 3 days, we have so many!!! But I love them being up, just seems to make everything much more cheerful!!! Will put some pictures of our decs on here for you to see, then you will understand why it takes so long!!! But that will be another time, as now I am ready for sleep! Take care all, think that brick wall is about to hit again!!!!
Saturday, 1 January 2011
The morning after the night before!
Well, I survived the New Year celebrations! Although the shoes had to be removed, I did manage to have a couple of dances! Whoop whoop!! But I am paying for it today! I had a fair bit to drink, but to be honest that killed the pain, so it was worth the slight hangover this morning, because I had such a great night!
We were made to feel very welcome by Amy, Francis and the rest of the staff, the restaurant was very busy, and we had a brilliant meal! Ray eventually made an appearance just after midnight, after cooking all evening. Steve, Les and Sam enjoyed their evening, Steve had us in fits of laughter, because after our starters and crispy duck pancakes, we gave him a menu to choose his main course, and he thought we were choosing pudding!!! He was stunned that we still had to choose a main, bless him!!!
At midnight Amy provided us all with pink champagne, lots of delicious puddings, and she put out lots of licquers for people to help themselves! They really are very generous! We left there at about 1 a.m., and then came back and had more champagne, mainly so that Rich could join us in a drink as he had been our driver, and the youngsters played on the Kinect!
We all surfaced at around 10 a.m. this morning, and Richard cooked us all a 'full monty', which was very much appreciated and hit the spot!!! Delicious!!!
I am feeling very positive today, which often happens in the new year, but if I am honest, January and February are my 2 worst months, because as well as having Fibro, I also have osteoarthritis, so the cold and damp do not do me any good! Roll on the Spring, which I actually prefer to the Summer!!
This month is quite busy for us, as we have 2 birthdays, Abby will be 22 on 11th January and Rich will be 54 on 20th, and I already have Abby's gift, but what do you buy for the man who has everything? Apparently he needs new trousers, so tomorrow we are off to M & S at Fosse Park to buy him some!
This morning I managed to do my exercises, which I have not managed to do for the last week or so because we have been busy, and it made my movements a lot easier! Although doing them sometimes causes me pain, it does loosen me up and makes the simplest of tasks easier to do! I have also been busy looking on line at registering for our visit to America in April! Instead of filling in a card on the plane, you now have to do it before you go, and you have to pay!!!!! Another way of getting money out of travellers, bit of a cheek when we are going there to spend our hard earned money (well not mine!!) in the first place and the holiday itself has cost us nearly 6 grand!!! Still, we promised the boys a return visit with just the four of us, as the last time we went with friends and it was not a success!!! Never again is all I will say on that one!!!! The boys are looking forward to going to Universal and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter, as am I, I love the books and the films, and I am in fact watching the Prisoner of Azkaban on TV right now as I type! How strange is that!!
I have spoken to Aaron today, which always eases my mind, he got home safely after his New Year celebrations, although he can't remember getting home, and when he called me he had just got back from collecting his coat, which he had left in the cloakroom of the night club they went to! What is he like!!!!!??? He had also been out and found a shop that was open and got himself some fish fingers and potato waffles for his tea, sounds about right for Aaron!!!! Bless him, I really miss him so much!!!
Well enough of me waffling on, I am going to go and get ready for a dip in the hot tub I think before I get showered, it is 5.45 p.m. and I am still in my nightie, talk about a lazy mare!!! lol Still it is a bank holiday, and that is what they are for, having worked so many of them in years gone by, it is nice now to enjoy them with my family! I am adding some pics from last night, I hope you will enjoy them!!
I would also like to mention my lovely friend Sara's blog page about her fightback from breast cancer:
We were made to feel very welcome by Amy, Francis and the rest of the staff, the restaurant was very busy, and we had a brilliant meal! Ray eventually made an appearance just after midnight, after cooking all evening. Steve, Les and Sam enjoyed their evening, Steve had us in fits of laughter, because after our starters and crispy duck pancakes, we gave him a menu to choose his main course, and he thought we were choosing pudding!!! He was stunned that we still had to choose a main, bless him!!!
At midnight Amy provided us all with pink champagne, lots of delicious puddings, and she put out lots of licquers for people to help themselves! They really are very generous! We left there at about 1 a.m., and then came back and had more champagne, mainly so that Rich could join us in a drink as he had been our driver, and the youngsters played on the Kinect!
We all surfaced at around 10 a.m. this morning, and Richard cooked us all a 'full monty', which was very much appreciated and hit the spot!!! Delicious!!!
I am feeling very positive today, which often happens in the new year, but if I am honest, January and February are my 2 worst months, because as well as having Fibro, I also have osteoarthritis, so the cold and damp do not do me any good! Roll on the Spring, which I actually prefer to the Summer!!
This month is quite busy for us, as we have 2 birthdays, Abby will be 22 on 11th January and Rich will be 54 on 20th, and I already have Abby's gift, but what do you buy for the man who has everything? Apparently he needs new trousers, so tomorrow we are off to M & S at Fosse Park to buy him some!
This morning I managed to do my exercises, which I have not managed to do for the last week or so because we have been busy, and it made my movements a lot easier! Although doing them sometimes causes me pain, it does loosen me up and makes the simplest of tasks easier to do! I have also been busy looking on line at registering for our visit to America in April! Instead of filling in a card on the plane, you now have to do it before you go, and you have to pay!!!!! Another way of getting money out of travellers, bit of a cheek when we are going there to spend our hard earned money (well not mine!!) in the first place and the holiday itself has cost us nearly 6 grand!!! Still, we promised the boys a return visit with just the four of us, as the last time we went with friends and it was not a success!!! Never again is all I will say on that one!!!! The boys are looking forward to going to Universal and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter, as am I, I love the books and the films, and I am in fact watching the Prisoner of Azkaban on TV right now as I type! How strange is that!!
I have spoken to Aaron today, which always eases my mind, he got home safely after his New Year celebrations, although he can't remember getting home, and when he called me he had just got back from collecting his coat, which he had left in the cloakroom of the night club they went to! What is he like!!!!!??? He had also been out and found a shop that was open and got himself some fish fingers and potato waffles for his tea, sounds about right for Aaron!!!! Bless him, I really miss him so much!!!
Well enough of me waffling on, I am going to go and get ready for a dip in the hot tub I think before I get showered, it is 5.45 p.m. and I am still in my nightie, talk about a lazy mare!!! lol Still it is a bank holiday, and that is what they are for, having worked so many of them in years gone by, it is nice now to enjoy them with my family! I am adding some pics from last night, I hope you will enjoy them!!
Sam (at the back), Steve, Les, Abby, Me, Rich, Luke
(and the Buddah!!!)
Rich and Me
Abby and Luke
Leslie and Steve
Sam and Leslie
I have just been onto my Facebook account and my wonderful friend Sara has put a piece on her page about two of her friends suffering with Fibro and there is a link to a page with information about it! Thought I would add this to my blog for today so people can look at it if they want to:
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/whyfmscfsarelinked/a/overlapping.htm
It is a very interesting article, and there are more links at the bottom of the page that you can look at to try and understand this chronic illness more!!!
If you want to pay this page a visit, you will hear about the trials and tribulations of one of the kindest, inspiring, awesome, lovely, warm and funny people I have ever had the good fortune to meet!!!
I have found myself coming back to this blog quite frequently today, probably because I am trying so hard to get through a tough day, and coming on here is making me put it into words! My wonderful friend Sara has come up trumps once again (and not the windy kind, lol!!!) and put my blogspot on her facebook page, and has become my first follower and left a comment! That really pleased me! She also has friends who have the illness, and they have been commenting on her facebook page, and oddly it gave me great solace to know that I am not alone in my fight! I also felt really chuffed with myself when I remembered a little saying I had made up during the tough days before I was diagnosed - 'little by little, one bit at a time, life may be tough, but at least I'm alive'! I used to say this to myself over and over when I was fighting the pain, struggling to peel a potato, cut up an onion, or just make a cup of tea! I used to sit then and write down my feelings of frustration, so I will tomorrow look for the notebook I used to write all my thoughts in, whether I will find it is another matter!!!! If I do, I will put some little bits of it on these pages! What I find strange is that Sara keeps on coming up in my life, yet 2 years ago I didn't even know her, and I have only met her once! I now truly believe that karma put her in my life for a good reason, because it was literally just a couple of months after I 'met' Sara, that my condition took me to a real low, and yet it was thinking of Sara and the fight she was going through that made me grateful every day that although I was in pain, as far as I knew (I thought the pain was from my osteoarthritis) my condition was not life threatening! For that I was extremely grateful!
Sara was also the person who when I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia was the first one to say 'well, at least now you know why you are in so much pain, and I know you will fight this Sharon', so she made me positive, inspired me, and made me feel that I could conquer the world! So I will definitely finish this blog with this question 'If there really is a God, why oh why does he make someone who is such a good person go through what he has put Sara through'?
Me and Sara when we finally met! Pickles is looking on hoping to get some Strawberry Meringue!
Me, Sara and her lovely boy Joseff!
Me, Sara and Joseff, it was such a fun night!
Although it was our first meeting, it felt like I had known her for years!
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